FREE YOURSELF...MY JOURNEY

Oncology Past... Present... Making Sense Of Things 😐💡

 
Also...
Making sense of constantly losing my hair.
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Illness... Funerals... Your Choices... Your Decisions👍👍

 
Once again... fell asleep before getting the chance to publish podcast. 
For the individual who unsuccessfully tries playing PHD without being an oncologist, a patient nor holding a degree. Here is some educational information for you from those who have the degree. Never downplay what patients experience nor try pivoting one patient against the other. As you as well, fully knew the location of my treatments/what hospital and even asked how the construction was coming along on hospital additions. My radiation was COMPLETELY DIFFERENT, as you knew this for years.
Mine is AGGRESSIVE. You are referring to another individuals medical, oncology case who was fortunate to not have a 7 inch size tumor that had a chance to grow for years. Their type of radiation was completely different. Nor did their treatment team have to max their radiation treatments out. I was sick for years. You also knew this. Everyone knew this. It has now grown back with many complications. My medical team do their damn best to help me... to the best of their ability, through each unforseen complication.
As a patient, they don't place you under hospital oncology care nor comfort care, desperately trying to gain control over the pain, doing their best to make one comfortable, while letting you know with as much compassion for you as they possibly can, " I am sorry, but there is nothing else we can do," for no good reason nor as a mere joke. Stressing the hell out of someone who is bravely fighting for years doesn't help any patient, and rightfully so. Patients who get to the point of screaming are doing so because they are sick, and there are people who walk among us that refuse to understand and are in mental denial of those who are sick. Never do that to anyone who is sick.
No one should have to get to the point of screaming to be heard that they need help, emotional support. People scream, per trauma therapists, "To be heard, as a last ditch desperate attempt."  To get to that point is desperation, because other forms of communication failed. Screaming is a last ditch effort. But sadly, if someone is not willing to listen to what you are saying, not caring enough to hear you. Screaming won't help either. It however, for many patients, is a great release when under the circumstances, it would do far-more-harm to bottle all that hurt in.
"As decent human beings, you should be there providing unconditional support for the patient."
Patients, all brave warriors  deserve unconditional love... unconditional support. If you can't do that for a patient, then at least have some decency for yourself and respect to let the patient who is already suffering enough know, you can not, nor are willing to be there for them. Don't instead intentionally continue causing a patient further grief. I am speaking on behalf of far-too-many patients who were neglected, abandoned by those who had a moral responsibility to be of great support to the patient who is bravely on their own, unique oncology journey. Not because they asked for cancer... but because they want to live. That's why they choose experimental treatments, oncology treatments. They signed all those legal, medical forms to proceed with oncology treatments because they want to LIVE. All patients deserve to be loved, supported during and after enduring treatments... unconditionally.
A patient's journey, doesn't end after oncology treatments. For many patients, like myself... those treatments, regardless of oncologists maximizing all efforts, sadly fail. That unconditional support should be provided by loved ones for the remainder of their life. No questions asked.
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Accelerated radiation refers to when the total dose is maximized, administered over a shorter period of time than usual. This involves more frequent doses, than once daily, to administer the maximum dose over a shorter period of time. This can be useful in some types of cancer that require a more aggressive treatment regimen.
# Educate Yourself
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Really! I Mean... Just How Many💡🧐👍

 
There are some things that people do... how they act... how nonchalant they become around those that are sick, that is beyond disturbing.
It can really make you question, just how many empty shells of human beings walk among us.
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Memorial Day Weekend 2022... How Will You Celebrate... Remember 🇺🇲🕯🇺🇸

 
Once again... 
I fell asleep before publishing this audio podcast. So... a day late`😴
Began working on the canvas paintings last night. Hopefully will be able to stay awake to work on them again tonight.
Took my meds last night and although took me awhile, I finally finished streaming the last season of one of my favorite shows... 1,000 lbs Sisters.
Talking about what is to become a very inspiring story... journey! 
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Fighting So Incredibly Hard... What You Can’t Win Against🕯

 
When your busy fighting to live...
The rest of the world around you is just a mere blur.
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Experience=Wisdom=Priceless💡👍

 
My specialists are trying to keep me from having to resort back on some pretty wicked gi treatments.
My first experience back to treatments had me feeling alot worse. The key is not being afraid of trying different drugs currently available on the market. 
Experiment.
Opioids are necessary when in this point of the journey. Problem is... the stronger the drug, the more dealing with side effects... slowing the body down. I'd much rather have less pain as possible, this means the necessity of having to experiment. Finding what works best to counteract the side effects. 
Having to go back on weekly treatments is something my body can no longer handle.
# Educate
# Share Your Journey
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Little Token Of Thanks 😊

 
And...
Once again, I fell asleep before hitting PUBLISH.
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Count Your Blessings 🙌 Twice..

 
Today has been rough.
In order to try at least making it possible to watch my fur kids play, requires now taking pain medication 30 minutes before leaving. 
Yesterday, it seemed to work for a bit. Today, it didn't even begin to touch the pain. Not even being gone that long and my body is exhausted. 
No one can predict the good days, good minutes or good seconds. One thing is for certain. When you get one of those good moments... count your blessings twice..
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Absolutely...No Regrets❣️

 
# Live With No Fear
# Live With No Regrets
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BEAUTIFUL Day 🌞🙏❣️

 
It felt GREAT to finally feel the warm sun on a perfect day!
I could tell Snoreo & Babyblue enjoyed having me watch them run and play 🐶❤️🐶
Getting out of breath a bit quicker now... so hoping to get squared away with insurance next week, medical equipment.
Here's wishing everyone a nice evening, get out there and take the time to enjoy the great outdoors!
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RECORD 60 MINUTE PODCAST! 🎤🎧

 
No lie!
I was literally getting ready to finish uploading audio for this podcast last night... then this happened: 🥱😴😂
Here's to finally finishing a 60 minute podcast!
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