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You Taught People It’s Okay To Disrespect Me... ✔️

 
It is no longer tolerated.
This is why you place blocks when constant jabs, insults don't stop... this after, I asked you to please refrain from continuing doing so.
But you have zero respect for me and it never stopped. It's only gotten worse. I realized with trauma therapists. The only person who can get this to stop, is me.
How you treat me, is how you taught others how to disrespect me. Per trauma therapists... they have learned from the best.
"Kimberly, you are going to have to one day, break-free."
My beloved pets are my kids. They are not objects. They have been there for me... where you have not. Especially while being sick, oncology treatments, surgeries. You were never there for me, emotionally or physically. Something, I longed for and mistakenly, sought in men. To be loved, unconditionally. I took from men, what ever little I could get... and made critical mistakes by doing so. I am learning and changing my behavior and choices with therapists. Trauma therapists. 
Everyone has their breaking point. I have respectfully had enough. Today, after the constant ridiculing, insults and now telling me to find homes and get rid of my beloved pets????????. We both know, if you did this same behavior and told someone else and their kids this... they would not tolerate it.
This is what others are NOT seeing. My therapists have also mentioned this, many times over. They are not seeing your side, because of the threats and mob like behavior to silence me, from doing so.
Today, I broke~free from the emotional jabs, insults and never-ending ridiculing. What others did not... nor did they... ever see.
You only saw one side. You never bothered to ask my side. So you can't... nor was it ever fair to pass judgment.
 I realized, what my therapists have been trying to show me for so many years. If I continue, no matter someone's title to me or how I'm connected. If I allow a person to not treat me with respect and unconditionally supporting, loving and being there emotionally. And instead... allowing behavior that has escalated to continue. It's only going to end up causing me some serious long term mental health problems. Long term consequences as well, with my internal health.
I am wise by experience, to now realize and understand, exactly what they meant. It is within my power, to stop the cycle, remove myself and move forward... to the best of my ability. 
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#Self Respect
#Apply Trauma Therapy
#Self Love
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Never Let Your Kids Unnecessarily Suffer...😔

 
Our adult children have so many pressures on them and we do not need to be another one, but rather be a safe harbor. 
When they can't rely on you to help support, lift them up.
They suffer.
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Being Comfortable Talking About The Uncomfortable... 😶🤔🤍

 
The truth... can be a sad reality.
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Pass It On ❤️❤️

 
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Having To Say Goodbye... 😔🐶🐱

 
It's been the most busiest day, that I can remember. So many phone calls, appointments... And at the end of the day.  I realized... I had to make decisions best for me and my fur kids. 
The best decisions for my health, and my life moving forward.
I got the greatest wisdom from a prosecutor, telling me that sometimes you have to get out of the cycle. You have to be able to understand, that we can't help everyone. People have to learn to help themselves, and sometimes... that doesn't always work either. You have to know when to quit. 
I was also told by my doctor today, that distress is causing you nothing, but further problems with your health. I don't want to see something happen to you, as a result of the stress. I have lost almost 18 pounds, in less than 2 months. I have been placed on medication to help with my anxiety... just temporarily, to help me get through this time in my life. My body desperately needs, sleep.
I stopped by the chapel in the hospital, after my specialists assistant said, sometimes reconnecting spiritually... helps people when they're going through hard times. As soon as I walked in that chapel. I felt overwhelming peace. I prayed to God, my loved ones in heaven, fur angels and guardian angels.
I prayed for closure... but most importantly, help in moving forward with my life.
 I realized today... I have to cut out the remaining people in my life, for my own well being. I come to realize as well. I cannot save someone from addiction. 
Today was the day, I said good bye. Next week, I will begin the process of legal name change. I realized as a respective therapist told me last year. That sometimes, we have to kill the old self off first... in order to emerge out of this cocoon. In order to break free and start a new. 
 It was the 1st time... I was thankful for mother nature and the many trees shedding more branches after the storm. I spent a few hours with my headphones on just listening to music, cleaning up branches and realizing the beginning of much needed closure, and peace. Creativity has always been a great escape for me. This video, although hard to create... was very therapeutic for me. Therapy for my soul. Knowing that today, and here going forward...
I must move on. 
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Narcissism... Wisdom To Protect Yourself... By Experience 🤔💡🔍

 
Get ready to take 📝 notes!
The best way to deal with a Narc... is by arming yourself with education! 
These dark souls... harbor more secrets than McDonald's Filet Of Fish! 🎭🤔🐠
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I Vow To Myself 🙂❣️✌️

 
Stop worrying about the feelings of... those whom didn't respect yours.
Stop investing precious time left on earth to... those whom couldn't give their time to you.
Stop helping... those whom didn't want to recognize when you were struggling.
Stop giving of yourself to... those whom couldn't treat you equally in any given relationship.
I vow to ✋️
And...
Continue redirecting my energy.
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Mask 🎭 Unveiled.

 
So I'm on a schedule now with my therapist, Monday, Wednesday and Friday. 
 I have always been the kind of person, to not always believe what people say and sometimes ... you don't want to believe, what you read on paper either. Sometimes, the people that are behind the disturbing behavior... are the people, that you would never dream of doing such things to you. 
 However...
When someone reveals their own mask, and you figure out where and who has started problems for you... for over the past decade.
 You can either let it break you or you can choose to rise above it. 
Choose how you respond.
Learn how to control your emotions, which has been the greatest therapy lesson of all. Most importantly... continuing to learn peace, and calm. 
Per therapist, now that you understand who has been behind the controls. This is not any type of relationship you want in your life. No one should dictate, threaten and control the thoughts and feelings of others. Nor should this individual or anyone else have others do dirty deeds for them. People have a right to share their story and their life as millions and billions of people do around the world.
"This, is the true essence of narcissistic controlling behavior."
And now, I finally have closure. 
I don't need to try, to figure out if everything I read or saw, and heard... could really come from this person. Could they really direct all of this madness over the years and why would they do such a thing to me?. 
For years, it was hard to fathom and believe this person could orchestrate... some really terrible, horrible, and unthinkable disturbing things that transpired and documented. Especially, during oncology treatments.
 Yet others, also suffered and dealt with similar behavior by the same individual. That has always been extremely hard to wrap my brain around, and I literally would try to find excuses for their behavior. Downright cruel behavior. Yet, my therapist was right, actually as well, his partner.
As for myself, I will continue learning peace and calm. I am proud of myself to had waited, give what transpired to my therapist. Most importantly, to not react, when the mask was finally revealed. And the person standing there... was the last person you would ever wanted to believe, would hurt you and be so downright cruel, mean.
 Learning the art of peace and calm has been the greatest gift, wisdom and lesson of all.
Understand that when a person finally reveals their mask... there is no turning back. That relationship is over and you must move on. There's no more trying.
It's just as my therapist said...
Done.
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Small Accomplishments... Still Count! 👏👍

 
Be PROUD of your BIG & small accomplishments❣️
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Personal GROWTH Is The GREATEST Gift!❣️🙂 🎁

 
Life will always happen.
And...
Personal GROWTH is the greatest gift one can give oneself!
Time to breathe in the great outdoors... better late, than never! 🙂🐶
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Prince Harry... Pamela Anderson... BOTH A MUST!!❤️🔥❤️!!

 
BOTH Autobiographies... Documentaries...
Pamela Anderson movie/Netflix
SPARE by Prince Harry
!!WEEKEND MUST!!
(SPARE wrong pronunciation, but you get the point...ha!)
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