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I think... I have posted and published this now, for the 3rd time.
Trying to explain it... sounded a bit crazy and that was pretty much my Christmas Eve, Christmas Day.
Chasing down someone's son, having a full mental meltdown. All because their parents, did not want them over for the holidays. Yes, I called those parents, twice. All, because let's face it... I know how end of life karma works. You do good, even when sometimes, it feels completely wrong or unfair. I am only responsible as a parent to my fur kiddos. But somehow, have realized the last second parental role modeling... thrown off to me, by others.
Me, contacting their parents to let them know... you may want to come get your son. Of course, they just let the recorder pick up and didn't return my concerning calls.
In the end, I made it through 2 days of pure stress and would never, ever do it again. No matter how much, I know the universe is watching. I ended up however, celebrating Christmas over the past 24-hours. Actually, enjoying myself and meeting up with those later, than one could had ever anticipated. They understand the situation, but this cannot continue another holiday. Parenting, someone else's son, who is not my responsibility.ย
Again...
If you do not understand, that being a parent is a lifetime commitment. Then you are not ready, for a child or children.
You don't get to pick, choose perfect kids. Then hopefully discard off, the one's that need extra help and attention... off to others out in the world.
No, I'm not a heartless, cold person. But... I have met my limits, on helping others with their son. Then having to move around my entire holiday schedule. Because the parents don't want their holidays to be ruined. Let's just face the facts, because you refuse to bring your adult son home for the holidays. That includes, if you have an adult son and they seek mental health assistance. When the hospital let's them leave, under strict guidelines, that they stay with you. Under your roof, as parents for minimum 24-hours. That doesn't mean telling them, less than 15-hours later... you have to leave now. That's not being responsible at all, to say the least. That is downright, dangerous. You don't choose to be active and supportive to grandkids... in order to forfeit your own flesh and blood, that may have troubles. No way, no how. Especially, when it comes to mental health. I'm a HUGE advocate when it comes to this!
I got smart this time, applied learned behavioral therapy. Seeing, I've been down this same type of breakdowns, with the same person. I have learned overtime, how to handle the behavior to not escalate matters, but to descalate. Omitting escalation, means choosing silence over trying to rhyme or reason.ย
I was still able to enjoy mixing some old, with new holiday traditions. I was mostly extatic to finally put up the Christmas tree this year! Then I broke down, and had a good healthy cry... because it was important. It's important to allow yourself to feel. That tree holds so many good, positive energy and happy memories of many decades of my life.
Even through it all... no one will ever take my joy away, when it comes to Christmas.ย
Sorry, negative energy. You will never take away my happiness. It actually, ended up being a pretty good Christmas... even if it was a little late!.
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Treatments started up again later this evening, so needless to say. The gift of food, came at the most perfect timing! A sweet treat to end a bittersweet holiday!
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